Even though this is my blog open to the world, I hope it helps whoever is reading it.
Why do I worry? Anxiety claimed my life once, I had anxiety trouble, and it required counseling. Amongst other things I had to talk out with a counselor,it became more controlled. And I don't know why we worry so much, when we have a big God.
-Wanting to take control?
-Wanting our way?
-Lack of trust?
-Lack of control?
-Pain?
-Something goes wrong?
-Lack of faith in God.
Worry can tear lives apart. It tears apart relationships, self-confidence, faith and belief in God, trust in others, thought patterns, appetite, sleep, breath. It causes one to turn internally. This is from experience.
Earlier, I was with a significant other, noticing my worrying was making me too quiet, and causes me to doubt myself. This can make me lose someone. God really means it when He wants us to give something up.
I am struggling with wanting my own way, control instead of God's. I think my lack of devotion time is adding to it.
[I am a person that has to have it. Otherwise, I fall a little within a day. When I try to take control].
You know those songs that are so convicting? Yeah, have those right now.
And God, He is loving. Every time we fall, every time we grow away, every time we repeat a mistake or run or hide [which, hiding to me from God, is quite hard] or don't want to face conviction, He runs towards us with open arms and hugs us and calls us His sons or daughters, as if nothing ever happened.
Someone wrote me once: "You worship like no one is watching. You love like you have never been hurt."
I hope that stays in my heart forever. I love God beyond the skies, and I am deep and cannot tell how deep. I am God's masterpiece.
[God, restore me to my innermost being.]
While I've experienced downgrading as a bad thing, I realize that who God made me at the core, is the best for everything. <3 Nothing else will do.
So, pray for me friends, that I give up my wants, way, control, worry, and grow up. And most of all, my lack of faith, lack of belief and trust, in God and people, even myself.
[THAT I LOVE MYSELF].
[BECAUSE FRIENDS, THE MEDIA LIES. WHO YOU ARE, IS A MASTERPIECE OF GOD. HIS IMAGE. CAN'T GET ANY BETTER THAN THAT. PRAISE GOD. WORRY SUCKS].
Monday, December 26, 2011
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Core
Sometimes I write in italics. Though I'm not the best writer, I know it is a hidden talent of mine. Something that is so vital I'm burning in my heart about. Who you are.
Remember my talk about compromise? Well, sometimes we're tempted to downgrade and trade for who we are for something ultimately terrible-who we aren't. This is vital.
Who am I? Passionately crazy about Jesus. He burns in my soul, in my heart, He makes my heart beat, He gives me life, I feel like when you're on a mountaintop all the time in my heart. Whenever I wander from who I am, I come back to who I am. I am passionate. Sometimes there is so much in my heart I don't know what to do with all of it.
The career that I am starting, I can't wait to do it all the time, I'm just getting my feet wet.
God has a specific plan and purpose for us, creates us the way we're supposed to be, exactly. He makes me want to run hard and long miles after Him. I've been compared to Kind David.
Poor.
Oppressed.
Captive.
Screwed Up.
Human Trafficked.
Suicidal.
Domestic Abuse.
Sick and Injured.
God, how can I do all of this? Oh, You remind me, "For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13.
Just because you have passion and interests, unsure how it will all work out, doesn't mean doubt kills that joy in the moment because God has the future planned out, before it came to be [Psalm 139].
SO God, please help me LIVE MY LIFE TO ITS FULLEST in You and not in sin. Rahab and lower the scarlet cord, Esther and come before You unannounced, Deborah and lead the men in the right direction for the victory. Miriam and trust you. David and dance Jesus.
Let go. Let God.
Remember my talk about compromise? Well, sometimes we're tempted to downgrade and trade for who we are for something ultimately terrible-who we aren't. This is vital.
Who am I? Passionately crazy about Jesus. He burns in my soul, in my heart, He makes my heart beat, He gives me life, I feel like when you're on a mountaintop all the time in my heart. Whenever I wander from who I am, I come back to who I am. I am passionate. Sometimes there is so much in my heart I don't know what to do with all of it.
The career that I am starting, I can't wait to do it all the time, I'm just getting my feet wet.
God has a specific plan and purpose for us, creates us the way we're supposed to be, exactly. He makes me want to run hard and long miles after Him. I've been compared to Kind David.
Poor.
Oppressed.
Captive.
Screwed Up.
Human Trafficked.
Suicidal.
Domestic Abuse.
Sick and Injured.
God, how can I do all of this? Oh, You remind me, "For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13.
Just because you have passion and interests, unsure how it will all work out, doesn't mean doubt kills that joy in the moment because God has the future planned out, before it came to be [Psalm 139].
SO God, please help me LIVE MY LIFE TO ITS FULLEST in You and not in sin. Rahab and lower the scarlet cord, Esther and come before You unannounced, Deborah and lead the men in the right direction for the victory. Miriam and trust you. David and dance Jesus.
Let go. Let God.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Something I've Realized.
As a new EMT on a Fire Department in a new town I'm living in, I was wondering how to be a Christian example without appearing judgmental. A friend, I figured. Which is how it's supposed to be. A relationship with God and others (love God love people). So I decided to not appear too "Jesus-y" and say this or that, and cause judgment. This was a tricky step to actually downgrading my faith, hiding, but not being ashamed. Compromise, ceasing in reading His thoughts, talking to Him, and deal with my problems my own way.
Sometimes I honestly get tired of the same thing all the time, the same things said to me, and the same way frequently. Tired of judgment and condemnation and legalism. Tired of having "friends" that are only there when they need me for something. Sometimes I enjoy dealing with things on my own with God, because He knows it all. Nothing wrong with that right?
Ever feel like you're too small or outgrown something? Need to move on? Yep as do I.
Ever feel like you're afraid to admit because you know whatever it is, is right?
Control is a major inherited issue with me. Chaos is caused without Jesus being my attention. Chaos, stress, impatience, denial, deception, sin, lust, self-hurt, hurt, boredom, inability, loss of focus, loss of enthusiasm, interest and wonder, not wanting to get out of bed, being hurtful, and some things people say to me actually do hurt.
Jesus, take me back. Grow me, and I want to be better than I need or see to be. Jesus take me back.
"Take You Back" Jeremy Camp.
It isn't good to downgrade your faith. Be in or out. Set apart. Wouldn't I rather, be an example, lead someone to Christ, than try to fit in? Hmmmm....think about it.
Wonderful thing about God, is if you've wandered or grown away from Him, He's usually closer than you think. Can always start over. What hope.
Jesus, take me back.
Psalm 51.
Sometimes I honestly get tired of the same thing all the time, the same things said to me, and the same way frequently. Tired of judgment and condemnation and legalism. Tired of having "friends" that are only there when they need me for something. Sometimes I enjoy dealing with things on my own with God, because He knows it all. Nothing wrong with that right?
Ever feel like you're too small or outgrown something? Need to move on? Yep as do I.
Ever feel like you're afraid to admit because you know whatever it is, is right?
Control is a major inherited issue with me. Chaos is caused without Jesus being my attention. Chaos, stress, impatience, denial, deception, sin, lust, self-hurt, hurt, boredom, inability, loss of focus, loss of enthusiasm, interest and wonder, not wanting to get out of bed, being hurtful, and some things people say to me actually do hurt.
Jesus, take me back. Grow me, and I want to be better than I need or see to be. Jesus take me back.
"Take You Back" Jeremy Camp.
It isn't good to downgrade your faith. Be in or out. Set apart. Wouldn't I rather, be an example, lead someone to Christ, than try to fit in? Hmmmm....think about it.
Wonderful thing about God, is if you've wandered or grown away from Him, He's usually closer than you think. Can always start over. What hope.
Jesus, take me back.
Psalm 51.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Once
"Christ suffered for our sins once for all time. He never sinned, but he died for sinners to bring you safely home to God. He suffered physical death, but he was raised to life in the Spirit." 1 Peter 3:18.
He died for it once. We have to ask for forgiveness once when we sin. He takes care of it once.
As far as the east is from the west. Psalm 103.
So, why do I visit my mistakes more than once?
And keep reminding God?
Think about it...
He died for it once. We have to ask for forgiveness once when we sin. He takes care of it once.
As far as the east is from the west. Psalm 103.
So, why do I visit my mistakes more than once?
And keep reminding God?
Think about it...
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Why
Today was one of the days I've been asked why I was an EMT.
I was rather surprised, and I have known my answer for awhile so I simply answered him. It left me wondering if it was good enough. I wonder what a true gut reason is. My answer is basically someone got injured where I used to live, and because God called [hopefully] into this profession. But to avoid a pompous answer, I really just want to help someone in their greatest need. And feel compassionate for them. Because in injury, you don't feel the best. I can imagine how they feel. When I think about the latter answer, God brings me home. More into focus. It is a heart thing.
Be careful of the mind, it can be where the enemy plants thoughts, and it can really run an individual wild.
There is also the flip side, when we focus on God-we get peace.
Everything settles.
Currently, I especially love volunteer. There is nothing like, getting paged and flying like light to save someone. I hope to serve currently where I am, and in the future long and honorably. It's an honor, a privilege, God's compassionate heart.
God, want to do this job through Your eyes, hands, feet and heart. In God's grace and Jesus' Name, Amen.
I was rather surprised, and I have known my answer for awhile so I simply answered him. It left me wondering if it was good enough. I wonder what a true gut reason is. My answer is basically someone got injured where I used to live, and because God called [hopefully] into this profession. But to avoid a pompous answer, I really just want to help someone in their greatest need. And feel compassionate for them. Because in injury, you don't feel the best. I can imagine how they feel. When I think about the latter answer, God brings me home. More into focus. It is a heart thing.
Be careful of the mind, it can be where the enemy plants thoughts, and it can really run an individual wild.
There is also the flip side, when we focus on God-we get peace.
Everything settles.
Currently, I especially love volunteer. There is nothing like, getting paged and flying like light to save someone. I hope to serve currently where I am, and in the future long and honorably. It's an honor, a privilege, God's compassionate heart.
God, want to do this job through Your eyes, hands, feet and heart. In God's grace and Jesus' Name, Amen.
Breathing
Breathing.
Even a big sigh, relieves so much of what is bottled up inside.
I remember when, I played piano, and if a song was rather challenging, I would stop inhaling and exhaling. As far as I consciously knew, as breathing is involuntary. Even my piano teacher pointed it out. I took piano for ten years, when the songs became more challenging, much more of a joy it was to play feet, hands, eyes, and listening all at the same precise time.
In my senior year, I quit piano, as my schedule became fuller. Starting my academic run, my stress level rose. I also had attained a hard spirit, thus meaning being hard on myself, not giving myself or others a break. Even as I have written that sentence I felt the anxiety brew inside.
Usually, I enjoy being with people as much as allotted, as I am an introvert. There are times I must spend alone and recharge, think, write, empty, breathe.
Then another day starts, my day gets planned as it goes on, little stressors are here and there, and I forget to acknowledge God about my problems. If it isn't present, it is the past.
Then I began thinking. Why hang on? Depress myself, choose to be sad, critical, alone...I mean, introverted people are usually quiet, awkward around new people, think a lot, at least for me, I deal with a lot of things internally, or internal things. I do talk to God a lot.
As this day progressed, I saw myself as getting easier, happier, and letting Jesus do it. Life is much easier. It isn't meaning that I'm dropping my introverted tendencies.
It means that I'm breathing.
Take a night, vegg out, sit, relax, it doesn't have to be the weekend. It can be now. Put the stressors at a stand still.
In....
Out....
Think about it. Tomorrow is a new day.
Even a big sigh, relieves so much of what is bottled up inside.
I remember when, I played piano, and if a song was rather challenging, I would stop inhaling and exhaling. As far as I consciously knew, as breathing is involuntary. Even my piano teacher pointed it out. I took piano for ten years, when the songs became more challenging, much more of a joy it was to play feet, hands, eyes, and listening all at the same precise time.
In my senior year, I quit piano, as my schedule became fuller. Starting my academic run, my stress level rose. I also had attained a hard spirit, thus meaning being hard on myself, not giving myself or others a break. Even as I have written that sentence I felt the anxiety brew inside.
Usually, I enjoy being with people as much as allotted, as I am an introvert. There are times I must spend alone and recharge, think, write, empty, breathe.
Then another day starts, my day gets planned as it goes on, little stressors are here and there, and I forget to acknowledge God about my problems. If it isn't present, it is the past.
Then I began thinking. Why hang on? Depress myself, choose to be sad, critical, alone...I mean, introverted people are usually quiet, awkward around new people, think a lot, at least for me, I deal with a lot of things internally, or internal things. I do talk to God a lot.
As this day progressed, I saw myself as getting easier, happier, and letting Jesus do it. Life is much easier. It isn't meaning that I'm dropping my introverted tendencies.
It means that I'm breathing.
Take a night, vegg out, sit, relax, it doesn't have to be the weekend. It can be now. Put the stressors at a stand still.
In....
Out....
Think about it. Tomorrow is a new day.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Serenity
In midst of class today, I noticed my life was a little off focus, chaotic, and stress level elevated. It had been that way for awhile.
Well, because Jesus got out of center. I noticed, I needed Him in my life; because I was trying to do it on my own. Well, as He spoke, "Without You I am nothing." Tis true, that were but mere flesh and dust, but amazingly His power and presence puts the chaos and stress on hold, and His peace is in the middle.
Ah...it is refreshing. Alas, I'm human. The main promise that has been grounding is "I will never leave you. I will never forsake you." Heb 13:5.
Isn't this pretty simple?
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Another part is that it is simpler to let Him take care of things. I know we want to control and make things happen for ourselves. Reckon we do have free will......but it is like, I don't want to make a decision without His guidance.
Today I have noticed particularly that maturing has set in. It might possibly be from insecurity of how I am now. I think it mainly has to do with wanting to improve myself. This whole confidence thing brings numerous attributes a long with it.
It is unexplainably more relieving to have confidence in thyself, to conduct in a kind manner, to look nice. As some say, "you look better, you feel better."
This doesn't mean to throw away who I am. No.
It is a very serious thing that I remain who I am. I have tried to be something for somebody, and perfect, even for Christ to do His works. I read today online, "If someone has called you weird, then good! That means you can be yourself." It is so true. I would rather be myself and find people who love that.
It takes away your energy anyway to try to conduct yourself in someone else's mold.
Because, lets face it: God made a perfect mold for YOU alone, and I can be imperfect because He loves me. For me.
SO I'd rather mature in who I am and see what God uses it for.
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Things to be:
A teacher
A social worker.
A teacher and a social worker.
A writer.
Jesus, please help me figure this out.
Jesus loves you.....
Well, because Jesus got out of center. I noticed, I needed Him in my life; because I was trying to do it on my own. Well, as He spoke, "Without You I am nothing." Tis true, that were but mere flesh and dust, but amazingly His power and presence puts the chaos and stress on hold, and His peace is in the middle.
Ah...it is refreshing. Alas, I'm human. The main promise that has been grounding is "I will never leave you. I will never forsake you." Heb 13:5.
Isn't this pretty simple?
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Another part is that it is simpler to let Him take care of things. I know we want to control and make things happen for ourselves. Reckon we do have free will......but it is like, I don't want to make a decision without His guidance.
Today I have noticed particularly that maturing has set in. It might possibly be from insecurity of how I am now. I think it mainly has to do with wanting to improve myself. This whole confidence thing brings numerous attributes a long with it.
It is unexplainably more relieving to have confidence in thyself, to conduct in a kind manner, to look nice. As some say, "you look better, you feel better."
This doesn't mean to throw away who I am. No.
It is a very serious thing that I remain who I am. I have tried to be something for somebody, and perfect, even for Christ to do His works. I read today online, "If someone has called you weird, then good! That means you can be yourself." It is so true. I would rather be myself and find people who love that.
It takes away your energy anyway to try to conduct yourself in someone else's mold.
Because, lets face it: God made a perfect mold for YOU alone, and I can be imperfect because He loves me. For me.
SO I'd rather mature in who I am and see what God uses it for.
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Things to be:
A teacher
A social worker.
A teacher and a social worker.
A writer.
Jesus, please help me figure this out.
Jesus loves you.....
Thursday, September 22, 2011
hard life lessons part two
Well...needless to say, God always wants us to grow. Sometimes we bite more than we can chew, or jump three steps instead of taking one. Well, I have an experience. I know that God is with me, and doesn't call the equipped, but equips the called. Sometimes God calls us to things, and then we wonder how He wants it to be panned out. I guess sometimes God grows us in making decisions, and when they are bigger decisions, it is harder to make. We take more time, and God reveals the answer sooner or later. He's good. He is with us and loves us, and nothing can change that. Nothing. Such security.
But a new challenge I face: believing in myself. I believe in God, and others, but not myself. From now on, I will choose to believe in myself, to get up every morning and say, "I can do this today. I can do this through Christ Jesus."
Will update soon on how this goes! Prayers please! Jesus loves you and nothing can change that.
Ever.
But a new challenge I face: believing in myself. I believe in God, and others, but not myself. From now on, I will choose to believe in myself, to get up every morning and say, "I can do this today. I can do this through Christ Jesus."
Will update soon on how this goes! Prayers please! Jesus loves you and nothing can change that.
Ever.
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
hard life lessons
I don't even know what to say. I don't even know how to begin. Except at some point, God has to wake me up, and help me realize my faults. At some points it has to be drastic, and/or a high risk. Then we see what our issues are. And sometimes God has to take things away. Blessed be His Name.
I realize I have a bad attitude, I try to control, I lack self-confidence. This is me. No mask here. And then at other times we have to get up and move on. And wonder if we can continue in what we were pursuing. I know, that my mind is filled with questions now.
And He gives us verses and reminders and friends, family, and Himself to help us, through it. And then really learn what God is giving us. So God, please help me through this, and really learn what I need to. And to focus, and be who You made me to be.
Because I don't need to be what I am not.
<3
I realize I have a bad attitude, I try to control, I lack self-confidence. This is me. No mask here. And then at other times we have to get up and move on. And wonder if we can continue in what we were pursuing. I know, that my mind is filled with questions now.
And He gives us verses and reminders and friends, family, and Himself to help us, through it. And then really learn what God is giving us. So God, please help me through this, and really learn what I need to. And to focus, and be who You made me to be.
Because I don't need to be what I am not.
<3
Thursday, September 1, 2011
character
Character comes out when you're under pressure. Or when something makes you upset, or have to choose between the right thing or the wrong thing. It is different than emotion. This time in my life, I'm being tested, tried,but God holds me still. In all trials, we try to do it ourselves, or deal with it not according to God's plan; when in fact, I believe trials are supposed to draw us nearer to Him.
"My soul thirsts for you." Psalm 63...
That is how I feel right now. God, why is it so hard for me to give things up to You? And do things Your way?
Why am I so negative? Trust me friends, negativity robs the life out of you, sometimes...I know it wastes my energy, causes self-pity, stress, unhealthy bodily functions. And we try to cope in wrong areas. God is bigger than, the air I breathe. And there are always problems bigger than mine, something else more important, a higher priority. A greater need . Jesus, thank you for those times of perspective.
Being tested, is it supposed to make you sad? Didn't Jesus say to rejoice in trials?
*perspective* Friends, encourage yourselves. Problems are temporary when comparing it to Eternity. Think it looks forever bleak right now? [This too shall pass]. Go out strong. Holy Spirit rose Jesus from the dead, with God. He brings you to it, He surely will bring you out of it. AND HE IS WITH YOU IN IT! "I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU. I WILL NEVER FORSAKE YOU!" [HEB. 13:5.]
Let God grow your character.
"Suffering leads to perseverance. Perseverance leads to character. Character leads to hope."
Amen God, smile inside. <3
"My soul thirsts for you." Psalm 63...
That is how I feel right now. God, why is it so hard for me to give things up to You? And do things Your way?
Why am I so negative? Trust me friends, negativity robs the life out of you, sometimes...I know it wastes my energy, causes self-pity, stress, unhealthy bodily functions. And we try to cope in wrong areas. God is bigger than, the air I breathe. And there are always problems bigger than mine, something else more important, a higher priority. A greater need . Jesus, thank you for those times of perspective.
Being tested, is it supposed to make you sad? Didn't Jesus say to rejoice in trials?
*perspective* Friends, encourage yourselves. Problems are temporary when comparing it to Eternity. Think it looks forever bleak right now? [This too shall pass]. Go out strong. Holy Spirit rose Jesus from the dead, with God. He brings you to it, He surely will bring you out of it. AND HE IS WITH YOU IN IT! "I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU. I WILL NEVER FORSAKE YOU!" [HEB. 13:5.]
Let God grow your character.
"Suffering leads to perseverance. Perseverance leads to character. Character leads to hope."
Amen God, smile inside. <3
Thursday, August 25, 2011
BUCKET LIST PART 2
Remember how I posted for a Bucket List?
Well here it is!!!!!!
1) Read the Bible A LOT!
2) Volunteer at Oasis House
3) Go Rapelling-and continue doing it
4) rescusitate someone
5) learn how to dive
6) get into a Christian drama team
7) go to China. Japan. Israel. Mt. Siani. Europe. Zambia. Ecuador. Everywhere else I want to go.
8) learn guitar/bass
9) start singing more
10) be a missionary.
11) be a paramedic
12) create an album. take a picture of an object that makes me smile everyday.
13) take a photography class
14)become bilingual
15) learn how to lip read and sign language
16) learn to SCUBA dive (in safe waters)
17)get married to a man, for life. who God has chosen for me.
18) learn how to use the chopsticks correctly
19) help end human trafficking. see domestic abuse decrease.
20) see people free in Jesus. from oppression, poverty.
21) first and foremost...LOVE MY JESUS WITH ALL THAT I AM!
22) See my sister in a Carmen role one day
23) See Brian conduct a big time choir, opera, or even my sister.
24) go to England with my mom
25) participate in reenactments.
26) visit old concentration camps
27) hold a butterfly
28) Kyack in oceans..and other waters.
29) hike and seek wonders of God's nature.
30) see my best friend build and design an amazing building, knowing it was his!!
31) get a tattoo? [maybe].
Praise the LORD!!! John 10:10!!!!!!!!
Well here it is!!!!!!
1) Read the Bible A LOT!
2) Volunteer at Oasis House
3) Go Rapelling-and continue doing it
4) rescusitate someone
5) learn how to dive
6) get into a Christian drama team
7) go to China. Japan. Israel. Mt. Siani. Europe. Zambia. Ecuador. Everywhere else I want to go.
8) learn guitar/bass
9) start singing more
10) be a missionary.
11) be a paramedic
12) create an album. take a picture of an object that makes me smile everyday.
13) take a photography class
14)become bilingual
15) learn how to lip read and sign language
16) learn to SCUBA dive (in safe waters)
17)get married to a man, for life. who God has chosen for me.
18) learn how to use the chopsticks correctly
19) help end human trafficking. see domestic abuse decrease.
20) see people free in Jesus. from oppression, poverty.
21) first and foremost...LOVE MY JESUS WITH ALL THAT I AM!
22) See my sister in a Carmen role one day
23) See Brian conduct a big time choir, opera, or even my sister.
24) go to England with my mom
25) participate in reenactments.
26) visit old concentration camps
27) hold a butterfly
28) Kyack in oceans..and other waters.
29) hike and seek wonders of God's nature.
30) see my best friend build and design an amazing building, knowing it was his!!
31) get a tattoo? [maybe].
Praise the LORD!!! John 10:10!!!!!!!!
Experience..
I'm not fully wise or knowledgeable here...what I post is my thoughts, my heart, and still a person with faults.
But I have realized experience is key, usually in life, right? And in careers, sooner or later, we become confident, and the technique may become second-nature.
In life, I'm convinced that what is/has been our misery becomes our ministry. What we've suffered with becomes our reality to help those going through it. Which is a great blessing, because you go into hindsight, seeing it is a great deal of ground gained. Praise the LORD.
Sometimes we get into something new, and lack confidence, maybe because the people around don't know us, and as the days, weeks, months, go by, the ice breaks, and we loosen up.
I know the word "experience" can have a negative side, because it reminds us of our regrets.
Well, from a good friend, who has taught me not to live with regrets, all we can do is have counterintuvuity,..which means we are thankful for the situations, which helps us overcome shame. [Shame is from the enemy].
Praise the LORD. Being reminded of that, gives me grace from Him AGAIN and takes the pressure off.
Under pressure? Relax.
Breathe.
It is in God's time.
The past is something to look back and be thankful, because we can help someone else now. If we didn't trust the LORD, where would we be? Something I can do better every day as well.
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Sometimes experience paves the way to a skill or career later in life, like something we're interested in. I love experience spiritually, especially being with God through hard times. It makes you stronger, He burns more within, it becomes more personable. This reminds me to grow up. :]
Growing hurts.
But I have realized experience is key, usually in life, right? And in careers, sooner or later, we become confident, and the technique may become second-nature.
In life, I'm convinced that what is/has been our misery becomes our ministry. What we've suffered with becomes our reality to help those going through it. Which is a great blessing, because you go into hindsight, seeing it is a great deal of ground gained. Praise the LORD.
Sometimes we get into something new, and lack confidence, maybe because the people around don't know us, and as the days, weeks, months, go by, the ice breaks, and we loosen up.
I know the word "experience" can have a negative side, because it reminds us of our regrets.
Well, from a good friend, who has taught me not to live with regrets, all we can do is have counterintuvuity,..which means we are thankful for the situations, which helps us overcome shame. [Shame is from the enemy].
Praise the LORD. Being reminded of that, gives me grace from Him AGAIN and takes the pressure off.
Under pressure? Relax.
Breathe.
It is in God's time.
The past is something to look back and be thankful, because we can help someone else now. If we didn't trust the LORD, where would we be? Something I can do better every day as well.
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Sometimes experience paves the way to a skill or career later in life, like something we're interested in. I love experience spiritually, especially being with God through hard times. It makes you stronger, He burns more within, it becomes more personable. This reminds me to grow up. :]
Growing hurts.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
[possibilities...]
So Possibilities:
to sing, eat, laugh, wake up, go to sleep, overcome addiction, fear, to get muscular, to learn guitar, to sing, to love Jesus, and love life even when it is hard. because the fluffy life is unrealistic. Jesus' love during those times keeps us grounded. He makes it real.
Over time, Jesus continues to create us to who He wants us to be...I'm liking new things all the time, like flowers more, photography, soft rock, and artists like Kendall Payne. Long friendships, those friends you do everything with, and have so much in common, and they can just come over whenever.
Through ups and downs, God teaches us, and gives us things to look forward too, and gives us stepping stones to overcome and understand.
then I think, why don't I think of these things all the time, and mess up like I usually do? time to not take His grace for granted. because He gives a lot of it.
I guess grace is like that beautiful flower, that stunning photo, or the "friend that sticks closer than a brother."
and my family. I don't know where I'd be without them. thank you, I love you family. God created us to be together for many reasons. He knits us, you know, Psalm 139.
Just because we make mistakes, now that I think of this, it shouldn't stop us from accepting His grace, and living our lives to the fullest for Him. the little desires in our hearts are from Him, and things that make us smile, He smiles. When we're sad, and when we're angry, so is He. He is compassionate. I'm thankful today for the small, beautiful, and tranquil things in life, that make us who we are, and who He is. and His love. most definitely. Amen God. <3
to sing, eat, laugh, wake up, go to sleep, overcome addiction, fear, to get muscular, to learn guitar, to sing, to love Jesus, and love life even when it is hard. because the fluffy life is unrealistic. Jesus' love during those times keeps us grounded. He makes it real.
Over time, Jesus continues to create us to who He wants us to be...I'm liking new things all the time, like flowers more, photography, soft rock, and artists like Kendall Payne. Long friendships, those friends you do everything with, and have so much in common, and they can just come over whenever.
Through ups and downs, God teaches us, and gives us things to look forward too, and gives us stepping stones to overcome and understand.
then I think, why don't I think of these things all the time, and mess up like I usually do? time to not take His grace for granted. because He gives a lot of it.
I guess grace is like that beautiful flower, that stunning photo, or the "friend that sticks closer than a brother."
and my family. I don't know where I'd be without them. thank you, I love you family. God created us to be together for many reasons. He knits us, you know, Psalm 139.
Just because we make mistakes, now that I think of this, it shouldn't stop us from accepting His grace, and living our lives to the fullest for Him. the little desires in our hearts are from Him, and things that make us smile, He smiles. When we're sad, and when we're angry, so is He. He is compassionate. I'm thankful today for the small, beautiful, and tranquil things in life, that make us who we are, and who He is. and His love. most definitely. Amen God. <3
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Issues
You know those times when we come to church and experience You and still sit in the pit?
Yep. Right here.
--______-----
my pit I sit.
Well, what is the reason and root behind being self pity ? Doesn't that produce, legal, and harsh, impatience, irritation, anger,
bitterness, sin, condemnation,and being hard?
What if I just accepted His grace and stop choosing pain? Is it because I make it my security? Do I want to be twelve?
Nope, I don't.
"are we to continue in sin, so that grace may increase?" NO!
Yep. Right here.
--______-----
my pit I sit.
Well, what is the reason and root behind being self pity ? Doesn't that produce, legal, and harsh, impatience, irritation, anger,
bitterness, sin, condemnation,and being hard?
What if I just accepted His grace and stop choosing pain? Is it because I make it my security? Do I want to be twelve?
Nope, I don't.
"are we to continue in sin, so that grace may increase?" NO!
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Jesus...You handle it.
lately, I've been noticing...how I try to do it all in my own dirt covered hands. sounds common doesn't it?
or to walk and talk about shame and be hard on myself. lack focus. maybe attack because of a future weekend..very God big stuff.
why not let Jesus handle it? He didn't intend for me to walk with shame. sometimes it is hard to overcome or let go of a sin because it is so easy for us.
there's nothing I can do to earn something I in fact already have. His favor. grace. love. and mercy.
works can't do it. i can't do it. people can't do it for me. Jesus has already done it. Scripture has meaning directly. sometimes different interpretations. sometimes a verse can mean one meaning in a season of life. and a different meaning in another season of life. Christ doesn't cause us to break by the board or strain ourselves in pious self-denial.
peace. rest. joy. love. future seeker not past sitter.
[Jesus paid it all. all to Him i owe. sin had left a crimson stain. He washed it white as snow. oh praise the One who paid my debt and raised this life up from the dead.]
it's like God saying ["I've paid it all. live for Me. sin no more. be free to love Me and love people. seek Me. learn from Me. follow Me. be a fisher of men. in My Name. with God, my Father, Myself, and the Holy Spirit, our helper. "]
Jesus. Jesus. Jesus. there's something about that Name.
or to walk and talk about shame and be hard on myself. lack focus. maybe attack because of a future weekend..very God big stuff.
why not let Jesus handle it? He didn't intend for me to walk with shame. sometimes it is hard to overcome or let go of a sin because it is so easy for us.
there's nothing I can do to earn something I in fact already have. His favor. grace. love. and mercy.
works can't do it. i can't do it. people can't do it for me. Jesus has already done it. Scripture has meaning directly. sometimes different interpretations. sometimes a verse can mean one meaning in a season of life. and a different meaning in another season of life. Christ doesn't cause us to break by the board or strain ourselves in pious self-denial.
peace. rest. joy. love. future seeker not past sitter.
[Jesus paid it all. all to Him i owe. sin had left a crimson stain. He washed it white as snow. oh praise the One who paid my debt and raised this life up from the dead.]
it's like God saying ["I've paid it all. live for Me. sin no more. be free to love Me and love people. seek Me. learn from Me. follow Me. be a fisher of men. in My Name. with God, my Father, Myself, and the Holy Spirit, our helper. "]
Jesus. Jesus. Jesus. there's something about that Name.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
living life to the fullest [part 2]
As I said before, Jesus gives us amounts of opportunities.
Also, as I said, there was a chance of getting a new job, in something i'm already trained in, God came through, He shined His light again in my life, and gave me the job i have been waiting for.
all i want to do is praise Him.
Also, as I said, there was a chance of getting a new job, in something i'm already trained in, God came through, He shined His light again in my life, and gave me the job i have been waiting for.
all i want to do is praise Him.
living life to the fullest
MAYBE I SHOULD MAKE A BUCKET LIST
Or just start really living my life. i mean, why sit back and regret the past, there's nothing i can do about it. except remember it. what a waste huh? this summer it is filled with possible opportunities and possibly a job. things like Chrysalis, Tar Hollow, a friend whom i haven't seen in five years. and another friend getting married. things God would be pumped about. yet He might want me to get a job, and might have to replace some of those things. and that is okay. He always has a plan and a reason, even if we don't agree with it at first.
maybe i can start enjoying the moments, and whom i'm with instead of dreading my life. which stems from procrastination. best way to get rid of that is prayer, and just doing it. why imagine a life when i have a wonderful one? kinda dumb. and there is things to do in where you live, soup kitchens, volunteer, churches, volunteer EMS, learning guitar, playing piano again, photos, maybe i'll take a photography class. maybe go into social work. after my [paramedics] current degree...
i have an idea, just to create some hobbies too, i enjoy yarn, like making bracelets, and lanyards. making things, and drawing, and being outdoors, and being with my Lover, Jesus...He's the best so far. He fills me when i'm empty, forgives me when i feel grose, picks me up when i fall, carries me when i can't go anymore, encourages me when i want to give up, and then gives me strength for it. and then He loves me. could i ask for anything more? [no].
do you see a bucket list here? i think so to. Amen.
Or just start really living my life. i mean, why sit back and regret the past, there's nothing i can do about it. except remember it. what a waste huh? this summer it is filled with possible opportunities and possibly a job. things like Chrysalis, Tar Hollow, a friend whom i haven't seen in five years. and another friend getting married. things God would be pumped about. yet He might want me to get a job, and might have to replace some of those things. and that is okay. He always has a plan and a reason, even if we don't agree with it at first.
maybe i can start enjoying the moments, and whom i'm with instead of dreading my life. which stems from procrastination. best way to get rid of that is prayer, and just doing it. why imagine a life when i have a wonderful one? kinda dumb. and there is things to do in where you live, soup kitchens, volunteer, churches, volunteer EMS, learning guitar, playing piano again, photos, maybe i'll take a photography class. maybe go into social work. after my [paramedics] current degree...
i have an idea, just to create some hobbies too, i enjoy yarn, like making bracelets, and lanyards. making things, and drawing, and being outdoors, and being with my Lover, Jesus...He's the best so far. He fills me when i'm empty, forgives me when i feel grose, picks me up when i fall, carries me when i can't go anymore, encourages me when i want to give up, and then gives me strength for it. and then He loves me. could i ask for anything more? [no].
do you see a bucket list here? i think so to. Amen.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
desires, compellings, passions
What do you do with them all? How do you go about doing it?
I just watched "To Save a Life" again, and right up my alley with wanting to help with suicidal and self-mutilating, and hurting, and poor, and oppressed. It's all in my heart, in my soul, in my mind, in my strength and God I need Your guidance to do it.
Psalm 61:1 <3
I just watched "To Save a Life" again, and right up my alley with wanting to help with suicidal and self-mutilating, and hurting, and poor, and oppressed. It's all in my heart, in my soul, in my mind, in my strength and God I need Your guidance to do it.
Psalm 61:1 <3
Thursday, May 5, 2011
starting over
Sometimes there are things in our lives that seem so sure or things that we desire so bad-yet sometimes God has a different plan or apart of His plan, and sometimes we just have to go with it.
I recently was in this situation- it sometimes is hard to know if you make the right decision, but that is why God has a plan, and we have to trust Him with it.
Sometimes there are things in our lives that we do not see coming, shatter our hearts and rattle the life we were living, and leave us broken, going down the narrow road along with all the forgiveness that has to come, the anger, the hurt, crying, screaming in the pillow, or moving, new jobs, relationships to friends, and, isn't in sometimes when things change or life turns upside down, we don't know what to do?
Things change, and that is when Christ steps in and creates stability. Sometimes we make ourselves feel better and fail, or move on too quickly admist the pain because we don't want to face or deal with it. But, God uses pain to grow us, and make us stronger, and new, a new beauty. And that's wonderful.
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, do not depend on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6.
ROMANS 8:28! " 28And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose."
I hope this encourages you friends! Starting new is amazing, we are new by Jesus' mercies everymorning! Lamentations!
Amen, Jesus loves you
I recently was in this situation- it sometimes is hard to know if you make the right decision, but that is why God has a plan, and we have to trust Him with it.
Sometimes there are things in our lives that we do not see coming, shatter our hearts and rattle the life we were living, and leave us broken, going down the narrow road along with all the forgiveness that has to come, the anger, the hurt, crying, screaming in the pillow, or moving, new jobs, relationships to friends, and, isn't in sometimes when things change or life turns upside down, we don't know what to do?
Things change, and that is when Christ steps in and creates stability. Sometimes we make ourselves feel better and fail, or move on too quickly admist the pain because we don't want to face or deal with it. But, God uses pain to grow us, and make us stronger, and new, a new beauty. And that's wonderful.
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart, do not depend on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6.
ROMANS 8:28! " 28And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose."
I hope this encourages you friends! Starting new is amazing, we are new by Jesus' mercies everymorning! Lamentations!
Amen, Jesus loves you
Saturday, April 23, 2011
learning new
Sometimes we pour our hearts and things into others and really we should do it to God. When things are painful, that is when we grow. Ideally, we like to plan our entire life out. Somehow we get woken up back to reality. But it is God's plan that matters, He has the best for me. He always will.
He is buried right now, and is fighting for me. Must I still fear? Return back to what I was doing? God is so big, He overcame death for me. Tomorrow He raises from the dead, which is a miracle in itself. That is definitely need power from God..Holy Spirit. It is wonderful to know God who loves and takes care of us, and never leaves us or "casts a shifting shadow" "Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever." I love that I can depend on Him forever. Forever. Forever. Forever, HE is faithful. AMEN!
He is buried right now, and is fighting for me. Must I still fear? Return back to what I was doing? God is so big, He overcame death for me. Tomorrow He raises from the dead, which is a miracle in itself. That is definitely need power from God..Holy Spirit. It is wonderful to know God who loves and takes care of us, and never leaves us or "casts a shifting shadow" "Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever." I love that I can depend on Him forever. Forever. Forever. Forever, HE is faithful. AMEN!
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Compromise
Ouch. I was just chatting with a good friend, and pulled out old notes. and they were about compromise [to do something you know is wrong.]
What is compromise elements in my life?
Will I choose to stop doing it?
Will I continue?
In a place where I am backsliding but getting to the point to really give it up. What is it that makes us want to hang onto sin and things that we think, make us feel better? Or things we know are wrong. I feel like "the dog that returns to its vomit" and doesn't know when to stop. Until Jesus puts reminders in our path, because He cares about us.
But sometimes it is all in where we put our mind, either on Christ or on our flesh. And the attitude, which I'm learning is so vitally important, even in our image of Jesus we're supposed to give to the mundane each day.
Jesus thank you for opening my eyes again.
"3(A) You keep him in perfect peace
whose mind is stayed on you,
because he trusts in you.
4Trust in the LORD forever,
for the LORD GOD is an everlasting rock." Isaiah 26:3-4
"5For(K) those who live according to the flesh set their minds on(L) the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on(M) the things of the Spirit. 6For to set(N) the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace. 7For the mind that is set on the flesh is(O) hostile to God, for it does not submit to God’s law;(P) indeed, it cannot. 8Those who are in the flesh cannot please God." Romans 8:5-8.
Hmm. Jesus is so good on how He takes care of us.
What is compromise elements in my life?
Will I choose to stop doing it?
Will I continue?
In a place where I am backsliding but getting to the point to really give it up. What is it that makes us want to hang onto sin and things that we think, make us feel better? Or things we know are wrong. I feel like "the dog that returns to its vomit" and doesn't know when to stop. Until Jesus puts reminders in our path, because He cares about us.
But sometimes it is all in where we put our mind, either on Christ or on our flesh. And the attitude, which I'm learning is so vitally important, even in our image of Jesus we're supposed to give to the mundane each day.
Jesus thank you for opening my eyes again.
"3(A) You keep him in perfect peace
whose mind is stayed on you,
because he trusts in you.
4Trust in the LORD forever,
for the LORD GOD is an everlasting rock." Isaiah 26:3-4
"5For(K) those who live according to the flesh set their minds on(L) the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on(M) the things of the Spirit. 6For to set(N) the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace. 7For the mind that is set on the flesh is(O) hostile to God, for it does not submit to God’s law;(P) indeed, it cannot. 8Those who are in the flesh cannot please God." Romans 8:5-8.
Hmm. Jesus is so good on how He takes care of us.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
...liberating man, You are holy, holy, God..
God,
I am amazed by You.
How can You take care of everything, hold it together and keep track of us at the same time?
Create the universe and the earth which I see everyday and us in six days? Rest on the seventh?
God help us rest...definitely in You.
God how did You send Your Son to the earth, full of hurt and lies? But Jesus it was sin that You chose to break, and You saw us, and You living in us, God You saw enough good in my sin filled heart and gave us You, the Holy Spirit, passion, desire, and longing and ache for You, and Your hands and feet to set the seed in for Your liberation in the people on this planet in captivity.
God we are but dust balls, "life as a vapor" and You give us Your plan and calling, and it is huge, and You are bigger. You give us desire to change the world and tell someone about You even if fear is stopping us God, forgive when it does. God how did You make Your Son sin and us clean? How were You always there and " earth with no form,Your Spirit (presence) hovering over the waters....?" No form? God grow Your desire and passion in me God, grow Jesus grow, rid and "Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean" of stuff hindering You. Go Jesus go!
I am wholly Yours, I am wholly Yours. I am full of earth and dirt and You. Everything, here i am. God go and use me. In Jesus' Name, Amen.
DCB
Bible
Jesus
I am amazed by You.
How can You take care of everything, hold it together and keep track of us at the same time?
Create the universe and the earth which I see everyday and us in six days? Rest on the seventh?
God help us rest...definitely in You.
God how did You send Your Son to the earth, full of hurt and lies? But Jesus it was sin that You chose to break, and You saw us, and You living in us, God You saw enough good in my sin filled heart and gave us You, the Holy Spirit, passion, desire, and longing and ache for You, and Your hands and feet to set the seed in for Your liberation in the people on this planet in captivity.
God we are but dust balls, "life as a vapor" and You give us Your plan and calling, and it is huge, and You are bigger. You give us desire to change the world and tell someone about You even if fear is stopping us God, forgive when it does. God how did You make Your Son sin and us clean? How were You always there and " earth with no form,Your Spirit (presence) hovering over the waters....?" No form? God grow Your desire and passion in me God, grow Jesus grow, rid and "Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean" of stuff hindering You. Go Jesus go!
I am wholly Yours, I am wholly Yours. I am full of earth and dirt and You. Everything, here i am. God go and use me. In Jesus' Name, Amen.
DCB
Bible
Jesus
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
He the surest thing....
Christ in all reality is the surest thing. He never lets us down, or hurt our hearts in a bad way, but to make us closer to Him.
Sometimes we feel second-shelf, or unvalued, and that hurts. Sometimes we just want some people to talk to us, make us feel better, listen to us when we hurt, and I'm learning that Christ is only going to supply that for my deepest need. I can seek and hope in people, in myself, but I know Christ is the ultimate One for that. It is all ok to cry on a friend's shoulder, by all means, God gave us eachother, we also need eachother.
Christ is always there for me, and in the sadness, every emotion He made, time, or season, Christ is always standing right beside me, and I can fully rely on Him. <3
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you. I have called you by your name, you are Mine." Isaiah 43:1b.
Sometimes we feel second-shelf, or unvalued, and that hurts. Sometimes we just want some people to talk to us, make us feel better, listen to us when we hurt, and I'm learning that Christ is only going to supply that for my deepest need. I can seek and hope in people, in myself, but I know Christ is the ultimate One for that. It is all ok to cry on a friend's shoulder, by all means, God gave us eachother, we also need eachother.
Christ is always there for me, and in the sadness, every emotion He made, time, or season, Christ is always standing right beside me, and I can fully rely on Him. <3
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you. I have called you by your name, you are Mine." Isaiah 43:1b.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
"You are making me new, You have made me new."
So I went. To my friend's church. So glad I did. I normally would have to really toss the idea around and convince myself that it was ok to go down by myself and sit and enjoy God's Word to me, and worship Him. Remembering that I can come as I am.
The Pastor had a really great sermon tonight.
In the clay process, we start out as mud. There is clay in it, but have to get the mud out, right? Then after that Christ begins to mold us, form us, shape us. And we get excited, because we feel Christ forming us and smack-dab in His hands. Then we get set aside. This is the stage where we seem to think this is wrong. Where we as clay start talking, like, "What is going on, what have I done where are You God?!" But in reality.........
being set aside is apart of the process, and that is ok.
To dry.
Then we go through the fire. This perhaps can be the hardest part. This is the stage where God brings in sanctification and setting us apart for His service. I've been through the fire, the purging of sin and my way of life that I had. It was hard, by no means easy. Along with that I had oppression and God was with me through it all. He gave me people to talk to and pour everything out to. This can be different fires, marriages, bankruptcy, losing a job, anything. Christ is just getting rid of or helping or preparing us for His work. This, as clay, is when we say, "I don't like that, ouch, that hurts."
Then He thinks about glaze and paint and puts a color on, maybe He didn't want that color so He picks another and sends us through the fire again, and again, constant renewal. Lamentations 3:22-23.
Then when we are done, we are BEAUTIFUL!
And ready to go back and work, serve, and serve the mud.
WAIT?! WHAT? SERVE THE M-U-D?!
Didn't I come from there, just came from there, just purged of my sin or healed from my marriage and God You want me to go and help the same or "the least of these?" Can't I just sit back and enjoy my new life, no worries?
We can enjoy the new life or newness, we will have worries, we will mess up, but I know we were made to serve. Mt.28:20.
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How easy it is to forget. Or to "slip back into the old grooves of evil." Or do things we've been healed from, or sin, or mess-up, be late, whatever.
Isn't that His love though?
Can't the glaze represent also the sin we get smudged, cracked, or dusted upon our new pot handles? And He has to renew us again and again? Isn't that His faithfulness and His GREAT PROMISE?!
I want to cling to that. It is a great hope to know and learn that Christ is never done with us until He returns. Phillippians 1:6.
What a brand new thing. You're beautiful!
Jesus, help me cling to this truth, and remember it is Your hearts desire to continue making me new, no matter what, help me be better. in Your grace and Name we pray and believe, Amen.
TRUTH!
The Pastor had a really great sermon tonight.
In the clay process, we start out as mud. There is clay in it, but have to get the mud out, right? Then after that Christ begins to mold us, form us, shape us. And we get excited, because we feel Christ forming us and smack-dab in His hands. Then we get set aside. This is the stage where we seem to think this is wrong. Where we as clay start talking, like, "What is going on, what have I done where are You God?!" But in reality.........
being set aside is apart of the process, and that is ok.
To dry.
Then we go through the fire. This perhaps can be the hardest part. This is the stage where God brings in sanctification and setting us apart for His service. I've been through the fire, the purging of sin and my way of life that I had. It was hard, by no means easy. Along with that I had oppression and God was with me through it all. He gave me people to talk to and pour everything out to. This can be different fires, marriages, bankruptcy, losing a job, anything. Christ is just getting rid of or helping or preparing us for His work. This, as clay, is when we say, "I don't like that, ouch, that hurts."
Then He thinks about glaze and paint and puts a color on, maybe He didn't want that color so He picks another and sends us through the fire again, and again, constant renewal. Lamentations 3:22-23.
Then when we are done, we are BEAUTIFUL!
And ready to go back and work, serve, and serve the mud.
WAIT?! WHAT? SERVE THE M-U-D?!
Didn't I come from there, just came from there, just purged of my sin or healed from my marriage and God You want me to go and help the same or "the least of these?" Can't I just sit back and enjoy my new life, no worries?
We can enjoy the new life or newness, we will have worries, we will mess up, but I know we were made to serve. Mt.28:20.
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How easy it is to forget. Or to "slip back into the old grooves of evil." Or do things we've been healed from, or sin, or mess-up, be late, whatever.
Isn't that His love though?
Can't the glaze represent also the sin we get smudged, cracked, or dusted upon our new pot handles? And He has to renew us again and again? Isn't that His faithfulness and His GREAT PROMISE?!
I want to cling to that. It is a great hope to know and learn that Christ is never done with us until He returns. Phillippians 1:6.
What a brand new thing. You're beautiful!
Jesus, help me cling to this truth, and remember it is Your hearts desire to continue making me new, no matter what, help me be better. in Your grace and Name we pray and believe, Amen.
TRUTH!
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Listen My Beloved...
"I knew what I was getting into when I called you. I knew what I was getting into when I said your name, but I said just the same. I knew what I was getting into when I chose you. I knew what I was getting into and I still like you. I knew what I was getting into and I still WANT YOU!"
Still chose you.
Still like you.
but I said it just the same.
Want you.
"I am not shocked, by your sin, by your weakness, I am not shocked by your brokenness."
Not shocked. by your sin, weakness, brokenness.
"Because only I can see the end from the beginning, and I only I can see where this is going, and I see in you the seeds of love, and the seeds of strength. When all you see is your failure, and pit of shame, I can see deeper than that, I know you better than, better than that."
I can see deeper than that.
Seeds of love.
Seeds of strength.
"You're only at the beginning you've just begun, and I can see where you're going, and all you can see is your hurtin, and your achin........but listen,"
"I knew what I was getting into when I called you, I knew what I was getting into when I said your name, but I said it just the same."
"Just don't give up, don't give in! If you don't quit, you'll win, you'll win. Everything, is in My Hands, it's going to be alright, it's going to be ok."
Everything is in My Hands.
"You don't have to pretend to be someone you're not, because I know you better than better than that. but Listen My Beloved,
I knew what I was getting into when I called you. I knew what I was getting into when I said your name, but I said it just the same, I knew what I was getting into and I still want you, I knew what I was getting into. "I knew what I was getting into, AND I STILL CHOSE YOU! I knew what I was getting into and I still LIKE YOU!"
Beloved, listen. to My truth, and live in it.
I love you with all that I AM,
Jesus.
Song above from Misty Edwards.
Still chose you.
Still like you.
but I said it just the same.
Want you.
"I am not shocked, by your sin, by your weakness, I am not shocked by your brokenness."
Not shocked. by your sin, weakness, brokenness.
"Because only I can see the end from the beginning, and I only I can see where this is going, and I see in you the seeds of love, and the seeds of strength. When all you see is your failure, and pit of shame, I can see deeper than that, I know you better than, better than that."
I can see deeper than that.
Seeds of love.
Seeds of strength.
"You're only at the beginning you've just begun, and I can see where you're going, and all you can see is your hurtin, and your achin........but listen,"
"I knew what I was getting into when I called you, I knew what I was getting into when I said your name, but I said it just the same."
"Just don't give up, don't give in! If you don't quit, you'll win, you'll win. Everything, is in My Hands, it's going to be alright, it's going to be ok."
Everything is in My Hands.
"You don't have to pretend to be someone you're not, because I know you better than better than that. but Listen My Beloved,
I knew what I was getting into when I called you. I knew what I was getting into when I said your name, but I said it just the same, I knew what I was getting into and I still want you, I knew what I was getting into. "I knew what I was getting into, AND I STILL CHOSE YOU! I knew what I was getting into and I still LIKE YOU!"
Beloved, listen. to My truth, and live in it.
I love you with all that I AM,
Jesus.
Song above from Misty Edwards.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
You're Something Special
This devotional was so good I had to post it! By Max Lucado:
Nothing.....in the whole world will ever be able to separate us from the love of God. Romans 8:39.
We want to know how long God's love will endure...Not just on Easter Sunday when our shoes are shined and our hair is fixed...Not when I'm peppy and positive, and ready to tackle world hunger. Not then. I know how he feels about me then. Even I like me then.
I want to know how he feels about me when I snap at anything that moves, when my thoughts are gutter-level, when my tongue is sharp enough to slice a rock. How does he feel about me then?...
Can anything separate us from the love Christ has for us?
God answered our question before we asked it. So we'd see his answer, he lit the sky with a star. So we'd hear it, he filled the night with a choir; and so we'd believe it, he did what no man had ever dreamed. He became flesh and dwelt among us.
He placed his hand on the shoulder of humanity and said, "You're something special."
Nothing.....in the whole world will ever be able to separate us from the love of God. Romans 8:39.
We want to know how long God's love will endure...Not just on Easter Sunday when our shoes are shined and our hair is fixed...Not when I'm peppy and positive, and ready to tackle world hunger. Not then. I know how he feels about me then. Even I like me then.
I want to know how he feels about me when I snap at anything that moves, when my thoughts are gutter-level, when my tongue is sharp enough to slice a rock. How does he feel about me then?...
Can anything separate us from the love Christ has for us?
God answered our question before we asked it. So we'd see his answer, he lit the sky with a star. So we'd hear it, he filled the night with a choir; and so we'd believe it, he did what no man had ever dreamed. He became flesh and dwelt among us.
He placed his hand on the shoulder of humanity and said, "You're something special."
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
..realized the need?
Has anyone else noticed the need for healing? Even in my own life, circumstances I'm facing now are in deep need of healing from Jesus Christ, our Lord. He's the healer, I've seen it and experienced it. And it is all throughout the world, people dying and in captivity, oppression, fear, sin, and worry. We all need healing of some kind, I know that if we keep crying out to the LORD, He will heal us in His own way, His will.
please pray for a Spirit and time of healing. Jesus came to do so.
please pray for a Spirit and time of healing. Jesus came to do so.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
What I've realized.
Remember all that pressure, that I've talked about? And the difference between God's grace and worrying about rules and regulations, about what I put in my mouth rather than what comes out of my heart? When I fast and when I pray or when I have to be a certain state or when I ask for forgiveness and ask Him over and over as if I'm already wanting to earn something that He's freely given me? Choose myself and sin? When there's peace and knowing God is the judge and He's the One who makes standards to live by rather than making standards that are impossible on myself and others? To be on the law, in the law so much rather than keeping my mind on the Spirit, and breathing? Romans 6: 14, "For sin will have no dominion over you, since you are not under law but under grace."
And the law is good, because it shows me my sin (Romans 7) and the law is summed up by "You shall love the LORD your God with all of your heart, with all of your soul, with all of your mind and with all of your strength, love your neighbor as yourself." ISN'T IT ABOUT LOVE RATHER THAN A RELIGION THAT I SEEMINGLY HAVE ATTAINED WHEN I AM IN REALITY PASSIONATE FOR JESUS AND SEEING PEOPLE FREE? That's the real me. Can't you see I want to be free.......from my LEGALISTIC CHRISTIANITY, MY LEGALISM! It messes me up, causes hurt for others, makes my life rigid, and makes pressure on myself!
Oh His love is bigger, He is bigger, He's my helper, He's my passion in my heart, I know I have to seek Him more, yes, but I know G-R-A-C-E has paid my legalism and sin, and doesn't He continue to sit beside us faithfully pursuing me? I also need to APPLY the Word even more, and to grow up, but God is here to help me. I apologize for any legalistic pressure I have put on you.
Jesus, loves, you.
And the law is good, because it shows me my sin (Romans 7) and the law is summed up by "You shall love the LORD your God with all of your heart, with all of your soul, with all of your mind and with all of your strength, love your neighbor as yourself." ISN'T IT ABOUT LOVE RATHER THAN A RELIGION THAT I SEEMINGLY HAVE ATTAINED WHEN I AM IN REALITY PASSIONATE FOR JESUS AND SEEING PEOPLE FREE? That's the real me. Can't you see I want to be free.......from my LEGALISTIC CHRISTIANITY, MY LEGALISM! It messes me up, causes hurt for others, makes my life rigid, and makes pressure on myself!
Oh His love is bigger, He is bigger, He's my helper, He's my passion in my heart, I know I have to seek Him more, yes, but I know G-R-A-C-E has paid my legalism and sin, and doesn't He continue to sit beside us faithfully pursuing me? I also need to APPLY the Word even more, and to grow up, but God is here to help me. I apologize for any legalistic pressure I have put on you.
Jesus, loves, you.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
The Spirit :D
Hey,
Ok, so I just am learning more about the Spirit, and He's cool.
God's awesome, He's amazing! If i live by the Spirit, and keep my mind on Him, I will have "life and peace." Romans 8. Wow. He's so cool I can't wrap my mind around Him, which makes Him giggle I wonder sometimes when I get excited or freak because He's so cool and I can't comprehend it in my human mind.
Pray for Chrysalis girls, this weekend is full of God's love. "In Your presence O God, there is fullness of joy, at Your right hand O God, there are pleasures evermore." (I think that's a verse, but the lyric how IHOP had that verse.)
"Sin can't hold me down, death itself can't keep me in the ground, death where is your sting, grave where is your victory? He's alive, He's alive, He's ALIVE! HE HAS RISEN! There is no power in Heaven or hell that can keep me from the love of the Father on the throne."
IHOP.org.
Jesus loves you!
"There is now therefore no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus." Romans 8:1.
Ok, so I just am learning more about the Spirit, and He's cool.
God's awesome, He's amazing! If i live by the Spirit, and keep my mind on Him, I will have "life and peace." Romans 8. Wow. He's so cool I can't wrap my mind around Him, which makes Him giggle I wonder sometimes when I get excited or freak because He's so cool and I can't comprehend it in my human mind.
Pray for Chrysalis girls, this weekend is full of God's love. "In Your presence O God, there is fullness of joy, at Your right hand O God, there are pleasures evermore." (I think that's a verse, but the lyric how IHOP had that verse.)
"Sin can't hold me down, death itself can't keep me in the ground, death where is your sting, grave where is your victory? He's alive, He's alive, He's ALIVE! HE HAS RISEN! There is no power in Heaven or hell that can keep me from the love of the Father on the throne."
IHOP.org.
Jesus loves you!
"There is now therefore no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus." Romans 8:1.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Jesus loves me
He really does. I cannot imagine and comprehend everything about HIM!
I AM NOT CONDEMNED! EVERRRR!!!!! WOW DOESN'T THAT BLOW YOUR MIND?
Well I went to IHOP onething, based on Psalm 27:4. This is a 24/7 prayer and worship base in Kansas City. And at first I didn't want to go.
I ended up going, and the first few things we did was register, and register for prophecy. Then we wrote down what we wanted God to do for us on this trip, and write it down. I knew already that I wanted to be healed. Healed from my sin, self-hatred, and self-condemnation, and the enemy's oppression.
What blows me is that after all He did for me, I choose to worry and get pressure on myself, because I didn't choose right to begin with. I am not condemned. Romans 8:1. But I'm forgiven.
Ok, so God basically healed me from what I needed, the most, self hurt. And He started on day 1, and I recieved a Word from God and everything on the first day, through a brother in Christ of mine, and he said, "I have a Word for you, "You're beautiful." Meaning God was saying that to me. Sure enough I needed it. From then on He started healing me in HIs own way. And it was wonderful. I have to remember to just BE! I don't have to do anything, to be in His presence, but BE! Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, how He loves me. So much!
I AM NOT CONDEMNED! EVERRRR!!!!! WOW DOESN'T THAT BLOW YOUR MIND?
Well I went to IHOP onething, based on Psalm 27:4. This is a 24/7 prayer and worship base in Kansas City. And at first I didn't want to go.
I ended up going, and the first few things we did was register, and register for prophecy. Then we wrote down what we wanted God to do for us on this trip, and write it down. I knew already that I wanted to be healed. Healed from my sin, self-hatred, and self-condemnation, and the enemy's oppression.
What blows me is that after all He did for me, I choose to worry and get pressure on myself, because I didn't choose right to begin with. I am not condemned. Romans 8:1. But I'm forgiven.
Ok, so God basically healed me from what I needed, the most, self hurt. And He started on day 1, and I recieved a Word from God and everything on the first day, through a brother in Christ of mine, and he said, "I have a Word for you, "You're beautiful." Meaning God was saying that to me. Sure enough I needed it. From then on He started healing me in HIs own way. And it was wonderful. I have to remember to just BE! I don't have to do anything, to be in His presence, but BE! Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, how He loves me. So much!
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