Serenity

In midst of class today, I noticed my life was a little off focus, chaotic, and stress level elevated. It had been that way for awhile.

Well, because Jesus got out of center. I noticed, I needed Him in my life; because I was trying to do it on my own. Well, as He spoke, "Without You I am nothing." Tis true, that were but mere flesh and dust, but amazingly His power and presence puts the chaos and stress on hold, and His peace is in the middle.

Ah...it is refreshing. Alas, I'm human. The main promise that has been grounding is "I will never leave you. I will never forsake you." Heb 13:5.

Isn't this pretty simple?

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Another part is that it is simpler to let Him take care of things. I know we want to control and make things happen for ourselves. Reckon we do have free will......but it is like, I don't want to make a decision without His guidance.

Today I have noticed particularly that maturing has set in. It might possibly be from insecurity of how I am now. I think it mainly has to do with wanting to improve myself. This whole confidence thing brings numerous attributes a long with it.

It is unexplainably more relieving to have confidence in thyself, to conduct in a kind manner, to look nice. As some say, "you look better, you feel better."

This doesn't mean to throw away who I am. No.

It is a very serious thing that I remain who I am. I have tried to be something for somebody, and perfect, even for Christ to do His works. I read today online, "If someone has called you weird, then good! That means you can be yourself." It is so true. I would rather be myself and find people who love that.

It takes away your energy anyway to try to conduct yourself in someone else's mold.

Because, lets face it: God made a perfect mold for YOU alone, and I can be imperfect because He loves me. For me.

SO I'd rather mature in who I am and see what God uses it for.
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Things to be:
A teacher

A social worker.

A teacher and a social worker.

A writer.

Jesus, please help me figure this out.

Jesus loves you.....