God's Abundance!

Lately, I've realized and remembered that God has a plan for us. And when we realized that plan or have a desire for God in doing something for Him and helping our selves, we really have to be fully aware.

The enemy will try to sabotage it. I hate the enemy.

but GOD is bigger.
God helps us realize everything that we need to know. His purpose is to "save the world through Him" He didn't come to condemn us. He's not a condemning God or foreceful. SO brothers, sisters,if you ever feel force or condemnation in your soul, watch out, because, "There is now therefore no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus." Romans 8:1. God is just, jealous, and loving. I need to learn to really let go of what I want, to let Him expand His love and grace! definently grace in me, and Himself!

I'm trying to live free. Please pray for me. The more we confess stuff, the more the enemy has LESS control.
I need to remember this ^.

"10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."

God wants us, full! You know like on Turkey Day, when we eat and enjoy love laughter and fellowship, that's God, who He is!

Jesus loves you!

God's Amazing Plans!

WOW! God really does call you to something and works it out, and He definently does His part, I learned that i have to do my part. This was in my EMT-B class, very hard, challenging, a lot to know, acquire and retain, an remember. God is good at the remembering and helping stuff.

Undisciplined in areas, human, lazy, and procrastination can very much interfere with LIFE! I do know where I need to improve, that's good, or need discipline, be more of a "hard-worker" in other areas of my life, and need of patience.

Im tired of supressing Christ and who I am, even my joy. I let myself have joy today, I passed the final! Amongst other things accomplished, I really couldn't believe that EVERYONE and MYSELF passed the final today! WOW! God had me study and helped me during the final.

During the quarter, I struggled, became lazy, and fell behind. One day, my instructor was talking to me, and I asked her what I should do, and this was her response, "I'd say you better get yourself in gear." And God helped me catch up, get major deadlines done, and now be resting, after the hard work of the past two weeks. I really can't grasp, that I made it through-WITH GOD'S HELP! ALL CREDIT AND GLORY TO GOD! AMEN!!!!!!!!

I made it through.
Though, not everything is done yet, it is nice to sit and rest in midst of the hard work, and have people praying for you. I need to improve.

God, thank your for painful growth, I feel alot better in the end. :D. In Jesus' Name, Amen. <><.

New thing He's showing me

I tend to have this view, that people aren't obliged to be with me, hug me, or spend their time with me. Usually it is out of self-pity, other times it is I don't want to butt in. Then other times I tend to have harsh words, hard on myself, I don't lift up the lever on myself, and have control-hate that. So then my passion becomes diminished, I get off the path, I worry and become confused and then that is when I cry to God or ask Him for help, instead of believing the truth :


"17 The LORD your God is with you,
the Mighty Warrior who saves.
He will take great delight in you;
in his love he will no longer rebuke you,
but will rejoice over you with singing.”
Zephaniah 3:17

He wants to. Because He loves, not out of obligation.
I do things sometimes out of obligation, I've realized I'm more the "legalism Christian." Which is entirely good. That is like, rules, rules, rules. Nothing wrong with rules, it is just "die by the sword" kind of living. I'm ready to leave the harshness, irritative, impatient, hard, and awful lies of the enemy at the Cross. I'm sick of feeling empty, sick, or condemed. (Romans 8:1).

Jesus I can't do this alone. Help me live in truth and in Your Spirit, and love!!!! Full God, I want to be full.

Awake after short hours of sleep, and a bad dream...

I awoke from short hours of sleep after having a bad dream, which maybe i've had something similar to it before. makes me thankful I have Jesus in my life.

There is a song, by Pocket Full of Rocks, that just is good. In it, it says, and this is from a website I'm copying this,

"Like the woman on her hands and knees
Crawling through the crowd
Reaching up to touch You
Knowing in You hope is found
Oh, let me crawl up near to You
And love and long and plead."

Wow. Something beautiful to think of after a bad dream, God is good, tells me to trust Him.

God is amazing!God rules!

Jesus loves you.

Romans 8:28; Phillipians 4:13.

A Few Thoughts

"always giving thanks for all things."

"not to hang our head in condemnation, but to ask for forgiveness and freedom."
Wow. There was this excercise that Pastor had his congregation do, which was to hold up our ten fingers, and thank God out loud saying, "God I thank you for____" and we had to say that for every ten thing. The beginning could be easier and then the fingers close to ten would be harder. Thanking for some things currently in my life that are hard, was hard, and easier things, and after I did this, I felt relieved. Wow. So now I am hoping to visit soon, and God really helped me and taught something new that I could do, and wow it also was praying out loud to God, which makes a difference too. It was just amazing, God can meet you anywhere, whether in your home, online, or at Church. Jesus is amazing. He loves us. "Trust Him, His love, and trust His love for us!" Amen. <><
from Jesus.
and from a local church. =)

the wind..

The wind today. Has anyone noticed it? Could it be from hurricane hermine? Could it be the "trees bending beneath His wind and mercy?"

Here's what I'm learning. In a devotion by Oswald Chambers, here's a paraphrased line from memory, "Never let anything between you and Jesus."

Isn' God cool? His love wraps us up, He watches us, can't wait for us to wake up to talk to us, for us to talk to Him. Isn't it awesome to just LOVE? Or to remind ourselves that we need love, live in love, pray for and in love, and not to have condemnation for ourselves? Don't we feel so much better?

Free?

Hmm..think about God's love for a moment, and how it has changed and affected you, changes and affects us daily, what He did for us, and continues, and pursues us, desires us, adores us, pleasure to see us, hear us, hug us, worship Him, live for Him, share Him, fellowship, pray, wear a smile, help someone out, and among other things.

Hm..He's good. What He wants, versus what we want.

I just think the wind is apart of God's power, it comes from Him, and it is also seeming like His love today, big, powerful, all around us. Amen.

Romans 8:1. "There is now therefore no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus."

"Behold the Father, behold the Father."

His love is forgiving, His love is fierce, He is jealous, and strong, He is patient, and wise. He is the everlasting God, and will never falter, will never fail, stands strong, disciplines us, helps us, picks us up, dusts off our shoes, and turns us around, and sets us free. He died on the cross for our sins, rose again, and set us free. because He loves us. We're important enough and saw who we could be, saw goodness in us and died, all because of the love of God! Breaks those chains of sin, captivity, addiction, stomps on them, throws them away, and He runs torward us! Pursues us! Captivates us! Saves, redeems, renews, reborn, and makes us brand new!

"But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him."

Luke 15

(Prodigal Son)

This is Jesus, when we stray or just have messed up, Jesus sees us from a long way off, and runs! He runs torward us! He forgives when we ask, "He is filled with grace and truth" and loves on us!

AMEN!

Pocket Full of Rocks

Last night was a concert with a Christian band and a revival with the LORD!

There is an important thing that needs to be addressed. The view of ourselves.

The view of myself is harsh, and hard. What the band leader said last night, is something that goes like this, "When we mess up, or when we sin, let's not get up in the morning and look at ourselves in the mirror and say, 'I'm such a sinner.' Let's get up and say, "I am a son of the living God, I am a daughter of the living God."

Jesus came and died for ours sins, taking away the guilt and shame that has to do with sin. We don't have to live in shame anymore, or guilt, or bondage, or sadness, darkness, hopeless. We can be completely free! That makes me feel good. That I'm loved by a God that much, that He said, "It's my sin, and I'll take it to the grave." Oh how I need to live this out!

God is not a God of shame, He is a God of love - HE IS LOVE! Amazing! That makes me happy does that make you happy-joyfull?

John 3:16- "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him will not perish, but have everlasting life."

God, and HIM!

Ok.
I don't even know what to say. Except after watching "Letters to God" it just makes me think of God and just Him.
I wonder, and just remember that God is faithful, and that He definitley knows me, my heart, God has a plan.

Last night, I was praying to God on my floor, laying on my side, wondering why I get so impatient, or irritated, or hard on others, or do what I do, and it is because I am doing those things to myself, so then it goes onto others. I then realized, if I am loving to myself, it will flow out to others. God is good, He helps us realize things, in order to help us out. God is so good. He is amazing.

Still worry.

After all God has done for me, I still worry about the same old things, or try to use other stuff to make it better. Why do I not trust Him? What's holding me back from living a life free? Or to know that I am free? Easter's tomorrow, yet I am still worrying about myself. What negativity.

Pastor David asked at the end of the devotional if this study has helped me.
It has, and I still know that I do not apply what I could, how much freedom that brings to use scriputre instead of my own way.
At first, I was interested in this study.I think I went to the SidneyFirst website and found STUPID GRACE or googled it. Then I started reading the devotional online, and this planted a seed to start my own blog. From then on, reading the devotional when I did, I wrote about it after the reading and got some thoughts out.

This Lent has been different than all the others, with some factors in it, and acutally doing a study on Lent.

Get so angry and disgusted with myself that I don't get it, or that I still try to do things my own way, or wallow in the old stuff. Can't wait til I get it.
"God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear." I Corinthians 10:13.

One thing I do lack is grace. I have a sad look on my face 24/7 rather than believing in His grace. Swayed by the wind tooooo mucchh!!!!!
welcome to life, where we deal with things yet God still radically loves us.

Amen. I want to be well. Pray that I apply it.

“But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed. We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way; and the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all.”- Isaiah 53:5-6

10"In bringing many sons to glory, it was fitting that God, for whom and through whom everything exists, should make the author of their salvation perfect through suffering." Hebrews 2:10

8"Although he was a son, he learned obedience from what he suffered." Hebrews 5:8

17"Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.

Future Glory
18I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."Romans 8:17-18

beautiful Scripture. Jesus loves you all.

God gives us just what we need.

God gives us what we need, He takes care of everything, even in Matthew it talks about how He already knows all of our needs. Matthew 6:25-34!
Well, sometimes we have battlefields in our minds, and sometimes I let that get to me. It really messes me up sometimes, but this Lenten devotion really helped me this time. It talked about Jesus looking at a man and just loving Him. I thought of that earlier today, and I didn't quite understand the whole verse. Another part of it was "go sell what you own" and it relates this way, to get rid of our "stuff" that we have sometimes.
It seems like I get in the way a lot. But it feels so much better to be emptied of the junk. It is clear, focus, Jesus. Well, there were some questions and silent meditation times, and the meditations can really help. There were three questions that were hitting home:
Does your self image hold you back from God?
Are you afraid to let things go?
Do you hold on to old hurts?
I believe those answers are yes. God has reminded me again of His GRACE and that I can let those things go! Learn to love myself, my image, and knowing a loving God. Isn't it amazing that He died and forgave all our junk? What a blessing! Hm, doesn't taht just make you feel better? Grace of God, it is like the smell of our Lilies and the rain of the spring and the clearness and Jesus and Holy Spirit and the Father!
Praise the Lord, I saw the light, no more darkness, no more night. Now I'm so happy, no sorrow in sight, Praise the Lord, I saw the light! -David Crowder Band, I Saw the Light, Collision.
Praise the Lord, in Jesus' name, AMEN!

Spiritual practices

STUPID GRACE's post today was about Spiritual Practices-feel as though journaling should be a practice in my life.
The most practice out of fasting, pilgramage, sacred days, Sabbath would be fasting.
I haven't entirely understood fasting. This blog post has explained fasting and understand that we should make it a practice, and that God will lead us to fast. It can also be a time to become closer to God, to spend time with God, and for God to satisfy our hunger. God is faithful, He is mighty to save.

I am in a ceramics class at school, and it reminds me a lot about the passage in Isaiah and in Jeremiah. In Isaiah, it says how we are the clay and God is the potter. Jeremiah talks about God telling Jeremiah to go to a potter to recieve word from God. A scripture is this, Jeremiah 18:4-"And the vessel he was making of clay was spoiled in the potter’s hand, and he reworked it into another vessel, as it seemed good to the potter to do." This tells me that God made us, and He made us even if we fall apart, He makes us whole because sometimes we break. Relativley, I was making a cup for my mother, and I was shaking some dust out of the cup, and the handle broke onto the table. Not too long after did I think about that God fixes us when we break, sometimes He completley starts over. And guess what? He still uses us. I ended up having the cup still fired, and it is painted now, and it still looks beautiful.
God is beautiful.

two masters

Hey.
OK, So I am reading STUPID GRACE's lenten study, and it has hit me again.
Yesterday I was reading about worry in Matthew, and how we cannot serve two masters, such as God and worry.
Well, the two masters came up again and it reminds me of revelations that God brings to my life.
I have had worries today and I just got reminded to find peace in God, and to trust and have faith in Him. Also, that I have to serve God.
I think sometimes I can be good dirt, but sometimes I let my dirt become rough because of my worries. I just need to read my Bible more and pray; I just need to continually remember God and that I am a child of God. =) I can help bad dirt become good dirt by letting God take care of my things and live and experience His freedom. Jehovah shalom. God is so cool.

faith

Faith. Constant believing.
I just read Moving Foward...From the Shape I Am In, his post about the founder of Campus Crusade, about faith, and how without good works, it is dead.
It's all about faith!
Why do I think about myself and put myself in front?
I have just realized that I try to be a perfectionist. At one point I thought that would help me be more organized, but it brought anxiety and being hard on myself when in fact, I am just a child of God who has faults, its all ok, God gave grace (John 3:16) and I need to remember to live in that.
I know that there isn't anything that should keep us from the Kingdom, isn't that why God says, "If anyone wants to be my disciple, you must deny yourself, pick up your cross, and follow Me." Denying ourself means not living in the flesh, or old self. Pick up your cross means to me personally, to take up my sinfulness, because I am a flesh feeder, and I get caught up in things and worry, it isn't good. Let's try getting fed by the Spirit. And follow Me, well, as David Chivington put it, "let's go! Come on!" Nothing can seperate me from God's love, or keep you from the Kingdom, He wants you anyway.
I'm wondering why I can't think of these things throughout the day. Why I am insecure, or I think I'm selfish at times. I get worried about dumb stuff. I seriously look back and am like, really?

What does a sentence look like without "I"? hope you have a good day. praying for you. will be back around whenever.

Wouldn't that be nice sometimes if we did not have to use.....?

Revelations

Ok. So God is really cool. He can be everywhere at once, in your heart, your mind, your soul, your body, your cells, blood, brain, breath, He's the reason why our hearts beat, why He forgives us, cleanses us, and lives with us, has the plans for us.

It seems that whenever I'm struggling, I like to figure things out my own way, but God does it differently.
When struggle is present, He reveals His answers by what I call, revelations. These are things that maybe come up again and again, almost like a quincidence. Sometimes those are really God things.

Example: A recited Scripture that maybe you spoke to yourself can appear again that same day through a friend or however it appears. This can happen again with songs, or just God talking to you over and over again.

God has done this recently, a lot. He seemed to take it His own way, His own pace. He decided to answer in a different way, and that's ok. We aren't supposed to have it our way. Sometimes it is just comforting, peaceful to know that God has His way, and that He will work it out.

One reoccuring Scripture was this, this is an important one to know: "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD,"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11.

So God's cool like that. He will answer, in His time, His way.

Lenten study and God's love.

This lenten study was about Jesus calling His disciples, and they immediatley dropped and left their old nets and followed Jesus.

It seems that some old nets prevent me from living fully for God as a disciple. Or maybe something that really threw me, I have a hard time letting it go and moving on.
God and I both know the nets, and it is just relieving to know that God puts our sin behind His back, and just overflows us with His grace! Wow. God just tells and fills us up with His love and it is wow. I think there might be fear, but the most difficult thing is that I get in the way, to being an apprentice for the Kingdom. Man, we can get into the way sometimes. One of my youth pastors said a good point-"when we aren't living in Jesus, we begin to check out into something that isn't reality." just a reminder for us to let go and let God, right? =)

love in Jesus.

lenten study

Ok.
So reading today's lenten study tied in with the sermon today at church. STUPID GRACE asked what the Kingdom of God looked like to me, what requires me to change to let God FULLY reign in my life, what the impact would bring if His soveriegn rule was really experienced, or if His KINGDOM really did come to earth and communities or to me, would it impact me or would I regret inviting it?
This morning I had to ask myself if I've really realized what the Kingdom was, what it was, if I was in it. Then David said "if the Spirit is at work, that's the Kingdom!" So I realize that I do know the Kingdom, that it is really big and the whole community of faith, the body of Christ, and soo much more! It is the Spirit in and among us.

Changes I know that I need to make are able to be overcome. Let go. God told me I can change, we all can. His strength is made perfect in weakness. The less I know the more I can depend on Him, have faith in Him. God is with me in everything. He is with you in every storm.

One last thing, I was at a concert and a point that was made was music somehow penetrates through things that we struggle with, or what keep us from God. It somehow reconnects us with Him, into His presence.

This is Kingdom!

lent has been good so far. have been reading other blogs such as STUPID GRACE and reading the daily lenten devotions.
This time is the first time I am really understanding lent, and what it is for, and that this time is for preparing for Easter.
before Lent started, I was already thinking of what I need to give up, and that was Facebook. I am on it a lot and it prevents me from enjoying time with my family and I seriously am wondering if this blog will do the same thing.
God has told me so far that I can change and is helping me move forward.
God is really great, so get to know Him!

beLOVED

Jesus loves you.
Trying a new outlet, I think I have things to say, and need writing to be put to work.
Check out Romans 8:1

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